Well, I took a little walk in the woods. I needed to expend some kinetic energy to calm myself. Too many things are hanging over  my head, the furnace that I've invested $459 in , but is only rigged and waiting one more replacement part and hopefully one final service charge; and then there's the bike that I think needs to have the carburetor rebuilt (which seems a little unfair since I just had the 50K service done last summer). I found myself just trudging along, immersed in all the beauty, but not really seeing it or appreciating it as I usually do. I made myself stop and look around and consciously absorb it several times, but as soon as I started moving again the worries encroached and I would have to try to reinsert myself into the present moment. All I can do is chip away at the problems little by little. I admitted to my oldest son, Ben, that I was really beginning to be afraid of my future. I am well aware that I'm just one small calamity away from being homeless.